everything is up in the air..feelings under the table and no one will say anything..

so i am so emotional..its not even funny..my family is falling apart..friends moving on..life going everywhere and nowhere at the same time..i just wish it would go back to being peaceful..wish life had that little kid feeling again..sorry to everyone i made feel like shit this season..all i was trying to do was spend time with the ones i love..guess its right what people say..u can never make everyone happy...i was so happy today then read something that made me cry...i hate crying...i hate feeling like an open book..i sometimes hate how what others say can hurt you.....but anyway i have been praying their hearts will be soften...they will understand and not judge it because of what happened when they were little..i just wish someone would take this burden away..i hate life sometimes...

the best weekend ever!!

ok so this weekend was the best weekend ever! friday night me and my best friends all went to temple square and walked around and saw the pretty lights lol!! then we went to crown burger and ate!! it was really good to !!! then we went with EJ to her hotel and spent the night and woke up saturday to SNOW!!! i love the snow and i hope it just keeps snowing cause we need it and i really want to go snow boarding lol....anyway saturday we had to drive in that storm and it really sucked...way bad...plus my tires are not at there best lol...anyway we made it home in one peice thankgoodness !!! then we spend the whole day with aubree(our married friend who we never really get to hang with lol) and watched this movie and we all fell asleep haha then we got ready and went to our friends laneys wedding(really pretty!!!!) and went home to aubs house and watched the dark night with her and her parents lol...(love that movie) then sunday me and sky could not drag out butts out of bed lol..but we made it to church!(just a little late lol) and while sitting in church we noticed the weather was to nice to just stay home so we....decided to take a trip to fillmore!!! yaya it was so much fun we had cake for EJ's birthday and but the christmas tree!! it was the best weekend ever!! i loved it!! lets just hope this weekend is just as great!!!

Christmas

Tis the season of giving and loving!
i have been reading the christmas box collection, and have found that not all men are uninteresting, this i am taking it as a true storie that had real people in them and a real ending. This David Parkins seems to be one of the wisest men i have ever known, kind, gentle and a great sense of humor. For in these stories we learn what the true/first christmas gift was, what life really is all about and what we never can get back. If i have learned anything from these books it has been that life is ment to be lived in happiness, that we are allowed happiness and love. i have found that....."Is this life, to grasp joy only to fear its escape? the price of happiness is the risk of losing it" (David Parkins) is that what we all fear? losing what happiness we already have? losing what we know our hearts can not live without once we have had them in our life? so is it worth losing it or to never have it??? This christmas season i ask all....what are you living for? who are you living for? and is there any love left in this world?

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!

NEW/ Christmas

ok ok its been a long time sense i have been on here lol...lets see its almost christmas!! i love christmas so much its like the best holiday season EVER lol...it has only snowed a little...that really pisses me off cause i cant go snowboarding and i love snow:( what is christmas with out snow??? im so mad lol....um lets see i get to go to temple square and ice skating with all my closes friends and i cant wait!!!! well thats all that is going on with me so hope everyone is happy lol!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!