Halloween!!!!!!

i decided i love to dress up!!! its like i get to be a little kid again! i mean who does not want to be a little kid again? so i am dressing up as a forest fairy and i will have my hair and nails done! i cant wait! oh and my brother is having a party!!! ya for halloween!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goodbye to all those i came to love

Good bye to those who have come to mean something in my life, u have helped me learn a lot about who i am and what i really want in life. Goodbye to the good times we had, the good times we would of had lol....Goodbye to all i have lost and to all i have gained....Goodbye to you all, it is time i came around to understanding who i really am and what i really need to do in this life time. i hope you will understand if i dont talk to you, please understand i have to do this for me...explaning would bring up a whole lot i would rather not talk about...please dont hate me when this is over...u will always hold a special part in my heart and i will always have you to thank for all i have learned about me!

HAPPINESS YOU'LL NEVER GET BACK

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back
ok so i saw this on my friends myspace page and just had to have it...life is so short to spend even one minute upset cause i will never get that back....

LIFE

Do you ever think that what you chose to do in your life only effects you? do you relize that everything we do effects all those around us...i mean EVERYTHING...my friend for example was enveous of my family because we said pray at dinner, we went to church every sunday...it didnt matter its just what we did...and him seeing that made him chose a completly different path then everyone expected....i bet we dont even know it but someone somewhere is always watching us....when you cut someone off driving you dont only cause them to have a bad day, people look at it like we aint cant no respect anymore...so when you decide to do something make sure your not just thinking about you.......

FAMILY

Have you ever felt like your so lucky to have a great life, great friends and the best family ever? i feel like that all the time....but my family is my life, i live with my older brother, my older sisters just live like ten min or so away from me...i spend a lot of time with my family, they have become my best friends. They have become the people i look to for help, love and understanding....they love me when i am not so understanding or nice, they let me cry about my stupid problems and they dont ever tell me that what i am crying over is dumb...they are the only people on this earth who completly understand me! i will miss being able to see them everyday, get a hug from them when i really need one. I dont know what i will do when i move but i know only one thing for sure....that i love them with all my heart!

100 facts about me!





well lets see....i love to read, if i am in a good book dont bug me i get mean lol, i love chocolate i could eat it for all three meals and then some(but i try not to lol), i love to play sports but i am really lazy to, i hate the cold but love to snowboard, i hate getting dressed up unless there is someone there i want to see me look cute, i say lol a lot and then hahaha a lot, i love to laugh and if you can make me laugh your my new best friend! i am a sucker for love storys and happy endings(even if i wont admit it out loud), i cant spell for the life of me haha, i hate to clean unless i am stressed or really bored, my guilty pleaser is tv; i love csi law and order svu and well i love to just be lazy haha, i try to be funny and it truns out i am not at all, i am really shy when it comes to guys; if i think you are cute i wont talk to you lol unless you talk to me first, i hate talking to people i dont know, i love sunday dinners cause my mom is the best cook ever! i am moving home so i can become a 5th grade school teacher(but i hate my home town), i hate how people hunt for fun and dont think a thing about killing animals:( i try to seem really mean but i am sweet at heart, i hate hate fake people,i hate talking on the phone; if you have something to say come say it to my face, i hate when guys call me babe when they dont even know me, i hate how guys think we are dumb, i hate how if your not married by 21 in utah there is something wrong with you haha, I HATE UTAH COUNTY DRIVERS YOU CANT DRIVE TO SAVE YOUR LIFE....i love the smell of fresh cut grass, i enjoy cutting the grass, i love to jumb on the tramp, i love to look up at the stars at night; and hate how i cant see them in the city, im a sucker for romance but will never admit it haha, i think its dumb when my heart skips a beat when guys say something cute, i try to go out of my way for people i care for, i cant chose between the seasons because i love them all!!! i think orange really is the new pink hahaha, i think there is a neon sighn above my head saying undateable hahaha, i love kids(when they are not mine), i want to have four kids, my sister made me eat grass when i was little haha, i hate hights but love to rock climb, i dont like big dogs they scare me...i hate hate hate spiders; one time one was on my leg and i cryed lol, i hate bugs; they gross me out, i hate the feel of dirt under my finger nails lol, i love the view from my parents house, i enjoy taking walks in the afternoon and talking about stuff that does not matter in life but bug us hahaha,i have wanted to go to paris sence i was like 12 yrs old, i cant speake anything but english and when i try i sound dumb haha,i love mexican food and could live off it haha, ok ok i just love food, i hate when people flake out on me, i like to just lay in bed in the mornings and cuddle in my blankets tell i have to get up haha, i love to cuddle with guys; the best nights sleep i ever had was cuddling with a guy!!!! the best gift given to me was from my dad and it was my CTR ring on my 17th birthday! i love big jewlery!! i cant handle money to save my life haha, i wish i could draw because my sisters can, i dont have any real girly talents, i cant match my cloths very well so i always ask people if i look ok haha, when i am nervous i pull on my ear lob( i know its weird but it calms me down) , i love geting a back rub!! i like to sleep alot lol...i have the worst memory and i cant remember names but i remember faces just fine lol....i hate doctors i dont care what kind of doctor they are i hate to go see them haha...i was just sitting here thinking about crazy things and well i always have these really crazy dreams and i dont know why...maybe my brain is crazy lol....i love to just talk and it never really makes sence lol....my nickname is hollwood and i got that name by my uncle when i was like 5 yrs old cause i thought i was the shit hahahaha, my other nick name is kay-k, and i hate first dates they seem to always be weird no matter how hard you try to make it normal and if it is normal its like one in every five dates haha, when work gets really slow i go to youtube and watch all the funniest home video's and i sit there laughing and everyone wonders whats going on its pretty funny hahaha, i really do believe there are stupid people out there, my worst fear is living life alone and never having a family, i hate pms just as bad as guys do; at least u dont have to go through it u just have to live with it, i hate dealing with pain; well i dont deal with pain at all i am a baby when it comes to pain, i have only one ring that i wear at all times it my CTR ring and i have lost it 5 times and everytime i have lost it; it has been by a pool, i love to swim but hate getting in my swimsuit haha, i like to work out when i am having a bad day or when i need to figure somthing out, i love to sleep in its the best way to spend your morning on a saturday! i love to watch the sun set; there is something romantic about it, i love the view from the umbrella tree im my home town!!! i love going to the salt lake temple; there is something there that makes me feel like i finally found my home....i love to hear happy endings and wish i could find mine, i hate saying goodbye i will most likly say see ya later; i think goodbyes mean your never going to see someone again and i believe that life dose not end here so goodbyes suck...i wish i could fix all my familys problems; but i cant and that bugs me....i love to go to gay pride every year; eveyone needs to know they are loved....i love to people watch; the best thing to do is to get a drink sit at the park and just watch people!!! i love to just sit in the sun and relaix, i hate how time goes by so slow when you want it to go by fast and i hate how it goes by fast when you want it to go by slow, i hate how life has a way of taking away our kid in us; i think being a kid is the best thing in the world!!! i always spill food/drinks on anything white that i am wearing...i hate it, i love lemons; i could eat them all day long but my dentist would get really mad at me.... my favorite color is green and pink, i already have my wedding colors picked out; i know im lame but i love those colors together lol....i talk really lound for no reason, i laugh out loud about somthing that happenned the day befor lol, i get mad over stupid stuff, i love to vent; so when i yell i am not yelling at you im yelling about what i am venting over....i hate talking about me; so this was really hard lol....and im so happy to be done with this hahahaha.....

my puppy

ok so my dog had puppies and they are so cute:) i love them, it sucks we have to give them all away:( but i get to keep one and i named her mercy! i mean think about it, everyone needs more mercy in there life lol...oh and i named my other dog after a charcter in a book so i thought i should do the same with her puppy so i named her mercy from a book and the best charcter was mercy! haha sorry i was just at work really bored and didnt want to finish my book so i thought i would write something about my puppy that i love lol

money

money is the problem to most peoples issues, i have decided that no matter now much i work or how hard i work i will never be on top..unless god himself helps me out:)

winter:)

ok ok, so winter is coming and i cant wait....that means snowboarding:) i am going to get a new board, and gear, and i am going to get a season pass to somewhere so i can go all the time:) yaeh for winter...i cant wait for snow...ok ok i hate to drive in it but its so much fun to play in!!!!!!!!!!!!